Thursday, September 6, 2007

TONIGHT


Tonight Lyn Hejinian called me a genius in front of a large group of people. Of course, you always want to believe it when people call you something like that. When Lyn Hejinian says it, you might really believe it for a second.

Tonight was a good reading. Famous people reminded me why they are famous: they are brilliant. They don't need blogs.

I don't feel like being a critic tonight and explaining why I like things or why I totally loved John Shoptaw's Crayfish Chimney poem. I am tired. Plus, one of the smartest people I know told me that I should stop blogging kind of.
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I started this blog to record and make public the achievements and failures of a group of poets. I think that was good. But then the group fell apart. Many of us are still friends, but the group is gone. That still saddens me. I started writing about my own failures and achievements and just what it's like in the bay for an artist. Maybe that was a mistake. I like doing this blog. But maybe this blog is a failure.
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Networking. I really don't know how. I did not make this blog to network. I always say the wrong things to people. I always write the wrong things. I don't laugh when I am supposed to laugh. I don't laugh if I don't think something is funny. People think I am an ass hole because of that sometimes. Tonight I only talked to people I knew or with people to whom I was being introduced. Maybe I am the cliquey one.
My smart friend made a compelling argument for staying out of the scene and producing art in the womb of obscurity.
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Someone asked me what was up with the half-naked women. I wanted to make poetry sexier or something for people who are not totally into poetry. A lot of people who know nothing about cars love their cars. When they sell cars, there's often a half-naked woman involved. I also thought it was funny after all of the trainwreck stuff I used to use. I guess no one else did.
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I am going to eat worms now.

5 comments:

Kathy said...

i like the ladies. but can we see curvy ladies sometimes? i like curvy ladies.

i like your blog. lyn hejinian thinks you are a genius. you shouldn't eat worms.

you are a vegetarian.

CLAY BANES said...

worms aren't meat.

Jenny Drai said...

Actually. there are usually 2 or 3 half-naked women involved. Trust me, I see a lot of car magazines. And the people who buy them. Brrrr.

Mumolo said...

yeah this is true all the skinny women make me want to eat worms. worms are skinny. clay banes is meat.

Sirenity said...

I wanted to see what Lyn Hejinian looks like. Instead, I got a hot girl in stripes. Mmmmm.